being in the fashion capital of australia, I feel I'm not making use of it.
I saw Ash Grunwald playing at Uni - he was one of the opening acts at the Ben Lee/Missy Higgins concert in Brisbane. Some of the ppl who came looked really fashionable. Not the "it" girl type, paris hilton sort of fashionable, but the unique and individual fashionable. Pretty scarves around heads, cool tops, and colourful skirts.
I miss dressing up to Uni. Even when I did do it in gold coast, it was kinda weird, since it was such a boring little campus... but I had fun dressing up anyway, picking which earrings or scarf I'd wear for the day. It would be extra fun if I met Ainslie that day because then we could talk about what we're wearing. oh the joy! I vow to return to my love of dressing up!

I went to the huuuuge lifeline bookfest yesterday. I think I'll go again tomorrow or tuesday.
I got 3 peanuts comics and 5 random magazines (inc. a June 2005 Vogue girl) for only $2 - All together!
plus, believe it or not, I bought the Smurfs Hits CD for 2.50. Never knew it exsisted. A lot of Smurf cheesiness, but at only $2.50, no way was I going to let it go by

graduations is just around the corner, and as corny as this is gonna sound.. what am I going to wear???
I couldn't find much pics or info about what people usually wear, although I have seen glimpses here and there. I was thinking of wearing my black pants with my pink kebaya/kurung top, but then it might be too hot since I'll probably have to spend a couple of hours catching public transport to get there. I have another dressy top that I wore for the iftaar a year ago. It's material is white, light, and it has some delicate-looking paintings of purple flowers all over it. It's quite pretty, too bad that it's also quite small and there are yellow stains around most of the seams. I'm hoping it's not that obvious though. I'm going to try and give it a nice hand wash tomorrow morning and see it it helps.

SHOES!! Here's where I'm really lost. I have a pair of black flats that look nice - until I start walking in them as they keep slipping of my heels. The only other option is my pink flats, which I'm not too keen on since it's.. pink. And not just pink, it's baby pink! I should probably go out and invest in a good pair of dress shoes, as I really have none. I'm really crap at buying shoes though. Sandals and flip-flops are fine, but shoes... ugh, they're either too expensive or too uncomfortable in the end, plus I've never really gotten the hand of talking to the shop assistants

It's 11.37 pm, not sleepy and it's frickin' HOT!!

When do you know you can call someone your "best friend"? are they the ones you can have heart-to-heart conversations with?
Have you had many in your life? Do they come and and go? When they go, is it a big deal? Do you feel emotional? Or does it just happen that they drift away?

I've been lately obsessed with the idea of friendship. I feel my life at the moment is lacking some good genuine friendships. Everything has become either complicated or stained. Maybe I have a tendency to hold on to something more than those people who I expect to do the same.
I can't remember the last time I could just sit down and honestly talk to someone - and feeling good about it - as they listen unselfishly and lovingly. And I can't remember the last time I let someone else do that.
I miss crying in someone arms. I miss telling someone that I've been crying and then not be judged by it. I miss laughing so much that it hurts. I miss being in someone's company and not worrying about what the other is thinking.
It's been too long

the latest song on my play-constantly-on-repeat-and-has-appropriate-lyrics-for-a-part-of-my-life

I saw the coolest T-shirts at Myers today when I went out with Karen.
There were stacks of nostalgia-type t-shirts of Peanuts, the Muppets, and Sesame Street characters. My favourite were the Peanuts ones, they were slight cheaper than the Muppets ones, but most of them were either size 12 or 14. The only one that was in my size, 10, was this super cool dark navy blue t-shirt with a huge picture of Peppermint Patty's miserable-looking face on one of the bottom corners. I think it was around $24, can't remember for sure. Oooooh, if there's ever a moment when I wanted a piece of clothing that seemed to *perfect* - this could be it! But I had just bought a top from Sportsgirl today, I didn't want to spend too much today. And yeah, it doesn't seem too expensive, which is why I'm starting to have second thoughts of whether I should just go back and buy it before it's gone

There was also some Cookie Monster hooded jackets - but I don't think summer is a good time for that

Suddenly I'm in the mood again for being creative and making another DIY shirt. I spattered some curry on my white shirt today, so I was thinking I try using my new fabric paint and paint something on it. Maybe not a Peanuts character though, hee hee

I just got The Corrs' new album, "Home"
and as always with me and new albums, I'll have an instant favourite that I can't get enough of. Right now it's this one

I went to Pac Fair with Ivana today. I didn't buy anything - aside from a few grocery items - but I had a good time, it was much better than I had expected, especially since I've never really gone out with Ivana before. She's a great gal.
Although at the end, I felt bad for never hanging out with the other Indonesians.

shyness - 1
me - 0

this is not what I expected at all. It was so... "yep, that's it. see you later". no drama. not even a single "it's been great, hasn't it?". I still have never spoken to most of the people in class. But let bygones be bygones.
Me and Ainslie took pictures as we were walking outside of Multimedia. I was a bit embarassed when some of the other students walked past, but we ended up taking a picture with Alexie too.
Me, Ainslie, and Bernice did our final presentation for Professional Practice. In our feedback, we did pretty good eventhough during the presentation we couldn't escape our palm cards, and ugh, that class is a really tough crowd! I could hardly push a smile out of those people when we showed our examples. There was one norwegian guy (don't know his name) who smiled nicely when I talked about pop-ups in websites, but everyone else was like :| sheesh
Bernice and Alexie said that they're gonna have a beach bbq for everyone. That would be really nice. I already know that Mira wouldn't want to go. Ainslie wasn't sure, but I'd go if she does.
Oh, Ainslie and I are going to see the ben lee and missy higgins concert tomorrow night. Aaaaah!! I can't wait! I'm so excited - I have never ever been to a concert in my life, and to see ben lee and missy higgins --- AAAH! It's going to be at the river stage. I have never been there before, but hopefully we can find our way. Maybe I should ask at the visitors information place at the city first in the morning. I hope it'll be great.

reminder to self: Stop buying the canteen's fried rice! you HAVE tasted it more than once before - never had you not complained about the taste.

God, I could really really use the company of a friend right now. Someone who'll listen to me. Or just hold me. Or something.

I think I have to learn to enjoy people's company more, instead of worrying about pleasing them.

I'm so exhausted. I wish I had a magazine to read.